Summer.

As I only have under 4 weeks left in Essex now, summer's slowly coming to a halt. Not everything's worked out as I've planned,  made a few stupid mistakes over summer. Instead of dwelling on them I plan to look to the future though. It's not who I am, and I just want to go back to the way things were. Regain my confidence and all that blah blah blah.
Only of late has the UK even seen a summer!
The Olympics has been an amazing experience. After seeing the opening ceremony the victory of all our brilliant athletes and then the tear jerking closing ceremony I can admit that I am definitely proud to say the least, to be British.
It would be an understatement to say I'm excited to go back to uni. I CANNOT FUCKING WAIT. I'm determined to drink till my liver collapses. Freshers 2012 better be good, or I shall not be pleased. Sounds so ridiculous but I cannot wait to have my first double bed when I move in. Got butterflies when I even bought my duvet.
Well it's too hot so that's all I can be bothered to type.

Laters bitches.

RANT

So much has happened the last few weeks and I just need to get everything off my chest.
Everything in my life has been going so well, far too well in fact.
I decided to go on a date with someone I was talking to for quite a while. Unfortunately I only felt a friendship therefore feeling like such a dick when I left... complete and utter cock up as I never lead people on, and I cant help but feel guilty about the whole situation.
Also I hate the fact that I act like such a dick when I've had a drink. I feel so embarrassed the next day, just want the ground to swallow me up.
Also I'm fed up of people at work thinking they can talk to me like I'm some shit on their shoe. No I will not hurry up, I will not be your personal shopper and I will not clean up your child's fanta they just spilt on the floor.
I hate how much I miss uni and everyone there. Just hanging out with my friends would just make me so much happier right now.
Oh yeah and the guy I've only really felt a connection with since I've been single likes someone else. #rejection
Basically fuck life.



Sad, hungover meatballs.